here's to the night

for all the times we shared
of course it'll still remain
but whatever we went through
wont ever be the same

Things will not eventually return to normal once a problem is faced. Altho, we may have sort of solve the problem. However, deep down inside we will never know what goes through other people's mind. I'm really sorry to admit this but I just can't, just can't get along and act as if nothing happened. Yes, of course it wasn't massive it's just that I just find it unnecessary to just go and talk to some of my friends. It's as if we have run out of things to talk about and we're just there just for the sake of it. It's true, I choose and pick the one's whom I really want to share and talk to . Why should I be blame for that you ask? Well, the answer is , I should not. Wanna know why? Because each and every person in our little so called circle of friends do the same thing to each and every one of us. As I grow older and become a more mature and wiser girl I soon now realize and see whom I can really trust. And as sad as it is to admit, I can list down the one's whom I can rely on the one's who I can't really rely on. Even from the very beginning, it has always been like this. A few number of circles in one big circle. I don't even know what the hell is going on with some of my friends life. What they are going through and such. To be frank, since I have another year only and after school life is over, god knows where all of us will be, I don't really know whom I'll still be in contact with later on. It feels weird talking to some of them now. Awkward moments at times too. How did it end up this way? Somehow rather, I just don't wanna know and I just don't seem to care anymore. Maybe it's just me . Maybe it just started weird and on the wrong path so eventually it ended up on the wrong path as well. Who knows, one day things will be upside down and different situations would be face. We'll see about that ey?

xoxo,
M